I'm still trying to figure out what's the point of living in a dying world. And not just the world itself, I'm probably going to die in about 10 years due to being peer-pressured to taking the snake bite. That's on top of other fears I've been experiencing recently. Fear of losing everything. Of the government claiming my money and barring me from something for some bureaucratic reason. Fear for greater control. Of seeing everything you know and love destroyed for some petty, bogus cause. Of seeing people fall for it and being pressured (as already happened). I'm just afraid of everything and I haven't felt this suicidal in a while, and the fact that the year has just started makes me feel that it's only going to get worse. I just don't know anymore. I don't see the point in anything, especially if my life and the world itself will just get worse and worse. I don't want to live a living hell. I'd rather just die. Isn't it funny how most cultures and civilizations treated suicide as a noble act of redemption, except for Judeo-christian societies? It's almost as if they knew they had to convince people to not to kill themselves so they wouldn't lose slaves in the hell world they were creating.
Just a thought.