>>2148 act upon your dreams and please stab me

>>1954 nice.

I had an eery dream a few days ago. I woke up on my bed and, in a morning haze, went to the living room, where I saw a christmas tree. I woke up no my bed again, went to the living room and saw the christams tree again. Third time I woke up in a hospital, with a mask on my face connecting to life support system. I stood up and took it off, feeling absolutely fine, Nurse came and escorted me out. The dream quickly devolved into nonsense, until I woke up on my bed again, hopefuly for real.

I had a dream I was working back in an office, but it was unfamiliar. I was moving to a different building and while carrying my stuff a bunch of cafeteria supplies fell from the ceiling of the new building. Can't remember what happened after that but as I was on my way home, I stopped by a public restroom that was next to a barber shop before going to a train stop. I was apparently in a very dense city that appeared to be entirely made of brutalist concrete architecture, and the sky was PITCH BLACK. I mean no light whatsoever other than the artificial lights of the city, I think the city may have been underground or something. Although I do remember a blue sky at my office so I don't know. Anyways I realized I left my wallet at the restroom so I ran back, but I saw a whole bunch of people had also lost their wallets... and they all looked very similar to mine. I picked up one that I thought was mine when some young lady came up to me and said it was hers. She offered to help find mine and after that go to her place to make some meatballs. Then I woke up and really wanted some meatballs.

>>2172 Great ending. Now I too want to eat meatballs

>>2065 Right there with you, anon. Something that's helped me a ton is shaving expenses to put a lot into savings. Now at any point I feel comfortable with telling my boss to fuck himself if I see fit, since I can live off my savings for more than enough time to find different work. Yeah it's still work, but at least I don't feel bound to something I very well understand I fucking hate.

>>1977 Night stocker at a grocery store, cleaner for office buildings, etc., baker, factory or meat/fish processing plant, delivery truck loader/package sorter for UPS for Fedex, hotel front desk, hospital administration These arent glamourous jobs by any means, but they're all necessary and all need to be done overnight

>Security Guard Outside of bars, predominantly black cities, and public events, security guard jobs are fairly tame other than the occasional drunk bitch. >Train conductor You actually need a bachelors degree to do that now. Also because of the railroad unions you'll have to do back-breaking labor for about ten years to maybe get promoted into it. >Medical field If you like working with people >Uber driver It's a side gig, not a full-time job. If you're gonna do that anyways, you should take advantage of the pandemic and work as a food delivery driver since you'd make more money and be exposed to fewer sick people. >What are some other jobs that allow you to stay up late? Overnight stockers are usually in high demand and make decent money. Same with overnight milk/sugar/beer processing facility employees and pallet stackers. Any kind of overnight or late shift factory work is usually pretty comfy and pays the bills. I know guys who work what's called "dispatch" for the truckers (basically the guy who gives directions, handles emergency situations, and does all the behind-the-scenes paperwork for truck drivers) and they say it's pretty good work and the pay is decent. If you work a commercial fishing vessel it's 18 hour "days" that start in the middle of the night usually for three months, then you get to collect unemployment for the other nine months out of the year, but it's backbreaking labor. Oil rigs tend to be one week on one week off or two weeks on two weeks off and have you swap every other hitch between morning tour (night shift) and day tour working 14 hours on 10 hours off during your tour. If you go into any of the technician jobs for the Navy you basically work through the night while at sea from what I've been told.

>>2013 I miss working late evening retail. If my current job didn't have me up at the crack ass of dawn, I'd probably pick up a late evening part-time shift as a side hustle.

A /late/ job might be nice, but I would never take one, simply because the city is too dangerous at night.

>>1115
I agree.

>>811
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1g07tvChuD0
This guy. Don't even need to understand Jap to enjoy his videos.

>>811 Ina's a pretty comfy vtuber

>>1158 >that homo who appeared last time! lmao wtf >>1732 Thanks, fren. Since making that post I went down the vtuber rabbithole and saw many cute things. I haven't checked out the hololive-en people yet. Other than being cursed by Amelia's singing.

Gawr Gura's cover of Tetsuro Yamashita - Ride on Time https://youtu.be/84LQRkdNVQY

>>2174 Best is, if you can afford it, to roll your own email server.

>>2175 will consider

>>2162 >any recommendations for email that isn't gmail/outlook/yahoo etc? secmail.pro Also check https://www.fsf.org/resources/webmail-systems

Here is a good list of alternatives that is fairly normie friendly: https://www.privacytools.io/providers/email/ Here are a couple of lists that are more comprehensive, but more in depth and technical: https://prxbx.com/email/ https://www.privacytools.io/providers/email/

Posteo if you're okay with paying. You can even send an envelope with cash to their address in Germany.

>>1720 Glad you’re also enjoying your stay. I always feel bad for failing to post enough given the state of the webring and things generally.

>>2067 >access an economic loophole What do you mean?

>>1749 Any sauce on the music for this webm anon? It's beautiful.

I just stumbled across this board today, and this reply is literally my first post on this entire board.

>>2182 Congratulations.

>>1897 >I'd like to thank the OP You are welcome. This is the only thread I visit here anymore, and even if I've moved on from some past issues and collected new ones I'm glad that others are keeping it alive and learning and giving their input. In a way it is interesting to look back through my old posts in this thread and see how things have changed and developed.

hoped i wouldnt have to come here so soon my father tried to kill me and my mother hes addicted to these sleeping and anxiety pills and he literally takes handfuls at a time i guess he got paranoid or scared or something but he came at her with an axe i literally punched it out of his hand as he brought it down onto her... one second late and she would be dead... he grabbed it and went at me but i parried it with my hands and threw it im much taller and stronger but he got a few hits in, i threw him to the ground and ran. im at my grandmothers place rn, im really not sure what to do i have a backpack with clothes, my laptop and phone, and like 800 r$, enough for a month/six weeks im not going back home, thats for sure i have family up north and wanted to stay at their place for a while with my mom but shes meeting with dad right now, she wants to talk with him, despite all my protests, im scared she`ll get killed but she wouldnt listen to me. im scared, confused, tired, and with my hands tied because im under 18 and not allowed to do much by myself i really wish id wake up and this would all be a nightmare, im considering just shooting myself, i have no friends or anything to help me out.

>>2129 I hope you’ll forgive me for beginning with a foreword apology for the potential failure on my part to provide necessary emotional nutrients given the gravity of your situation, my personal mindset, & the absolute state of things globally. Addressing brass tacks; let’s not be too hasty with your suicide, you just saved your mother’s life and have escaped from a dysfunctional family environment that suddenly yet mildly predictably turned hostile with enough resources to support yourself in order to form a more concrete plan for moderately comfortable survival in the near future. There’s no doubt that the emotional pangs suffered during this confrontation will take years to undo and perhaps may never truly heal but it’s nearly a guarantee that your gaping wounds will fade into scars that could potentially heal completely if your father can ever be saved from the opioid epidemic. I suggest that you take another day or two to decompress before reaching out to your extended family so that you won’t come across as traumatically unhinged given the itchy trigger finger many have for dialing the authority figure nearest and dearest to them. Ask your mom to download a geolocation app on her phone so that you can ping her at a moment’s notice and keep track of her but you probably shouldn’t call the police. Take solace in the fact that you’ve done almost everything that you could under the circumstances-bleak as they may be-and apply the skills you’ve used thus far to focus on self-preservation so that you can do what you know is right again in the future.

>>2129 Killing yourself isn't a solution, you're still young like most of us. I wish to give you all my strength for you to resist this temptation. Killing yourself is denying the fact that good and happy things will also happen to you. So I wish the best to you and your mom. I hope you can get her somewhere we're she'll be safe.

>>2135 Well spoken anon, you know what to say :) Anyway OP, don't close the pages of the book so soon when you're only in the first chapters. Things right now are really rough but you have to comfort your mom during this time and be there for each other. I believe in you, there's more to life. Fake it until you get there. <3

Here's some to get things started

looks pretty dead here

Merry Christmas from /co/!

>>2100 Site ate the card.

I got money, vodka and chocolate xD Happy Holly days

>>2098 I hope you all had a great Christmas this year ! For my part i was given money, a book and a poster. Cheers everyone !

>>2098 A pajama, a shirt, perfume and 30 bucks. Mediocre overall, but I can't complain over getting free shit.

im really struggling with my french learning, though i guess imnot trying toooooooo hard >>1990 mongolian??? well, thats a first, are you from mongolia? if not why do you know mongolian? mongolia looks fuckin nice >>1604 esperanto is pretty interesting, but i dont think it could have ever suceeded. good luck learning it anon

>>1992 >mongolian??? yep im from mongolia >mongolia looks fuckin nice the countryside can look good but almost everything else here is shit

>>1992 >im really struggling with my french learning, though i guess imnot trying toooooooo hard I speak french, if you need some tips i can give ya some :)

>What you studying? Latin >How is it going? Slow, it's a dead language after all :) >What languages do you speak? Polish, English and a bit of German, single words from other languages like Russian, Swedish etc

I speak Ukrainian and Russian. >What you studying? English lol.

My car got hit by a truck when I was an infant and the children's court settled with the company for a large sum in annuity. Large to normal people, not millionaire tier by any stretch. I basically have a small trust fun I've been mostly funelling into crypto since 2016 and almost have enough to buy a small house in the country now. I don't feel guilty about it because my family is working class and the company should have maintained the trucks brakes which failed and I have muscular-skeletal and neurological problems from the accident to this day. Sorry if that doesn't help but real talk my payments aren't much more than neetbux. Crypto is just insane. A few grand in ethereum turned into tens of thousands of dollars. I also live at home with my mum which means I don't have to spend all my money on expenses like rent.

I have a job in a research lab, but I work from home, 2-3 hours a week at best, though the contract says 20. The pay is tolerable by local standards, plus I have a small schoolarship from postgrad studies where the last time I had to do anything was two or so years ago, and a couple of minor but better paying freelance jobs from time to time.

I was born to a wealthy family that is genuinely concerned im going to kill myself or others without a safety net.

>>2080 Local business wagie. High hourly pay, low hours. Although, unfortunately, the hours are steadily increasing.

unemployed in hs right now, but every couple hundred dollars i get from relatives goes into savings or stocks. i should look at crypto but i've had shotty experiences with it in the past

i've got just the thing

>>2010 I love this video and I don't know why

I don't have this thought anymore but a year ago I used to sit on an armchair at my parent's house which was next a window overlooking the street. And I always thought "Right now i'm in my little comfort, everyone is in their little comfort, but all we need for it to go away is electricity to stop or water and food to stop coming to end all this comfort.

One really comforting thought I've had recently is that nothing is truly created or destroyed. Everything is still here. It might be different now, but it's still around.

>>2006 >before entropy erases everything can't remember where I read it, though, if the theory that the universe we're living in now is a False vacuum is true, then it will go pop and everything we ever know in it will go "poof" without warning, and there's nothing anyone can do about it.

did you find anyone? i'd love to play on one of these if you do but i cant host unfortunately

>>2096 no one yet unfortunately

>>1451 heres your lonely (you) alone all together

>>1431 3 years of self isolation has only heightened my sympathy for you anon. Do whatever passes the time, as is all you can do.

He was forced to move back home by his mom. At least I got a free single?

>>1488 Fuckin' sweet, now you can use the extra mattress and bedframe to build a fort

Run around naked.

Its ok stayin up late at ni8...if u didnt done that then u aint in no teenage catagory...stayin up late, doin thang is no big deal...unless u cant find sleep, in my case, kinda hefty...u know wat I mean...but itz aight to stay up late...n,hey, its u who said u lost at a sea but, u got a whole sea to hustle at...:)

Its ok stayin up late at ni8...if u didnt done that then u aint in no teenage catagory...stayin up late, doin thang is no big deal...unless u cant find sleep, in my case, kinda hefty...u know wat I mean...but itz aight to stay up late...n,hey, its u who said u lost at a sea but, u got a whole sea to hustle at...:)

listening rn if anyone wanna join

>>2054 this song is pretty comfy hope youre doing good anon

>>2055 </3

this song would be a lot better if it were actually snowing outside instead of just being cold and rainy :/

I haven't tuned in in a while. Forgot how nice the music was here.

Best wallpaper for me is solid color, preferably black

>>144 thanks for the "big ass robots walking" wallpaper

>>29 good papes

The Long Dark does I believe (depending on if you do story mode or just the survival),

im too poor to play most games so im useless to you

Minecraft ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

Half-Life technically has no intro cutscene, but you're stuck on the train so idk

who the fuck is yugiyama ?

>>2005 searched it up, it's a jojo character

>>2012 HOLY FUCKING SHIT IS THAT A MOTHERFUCKING JOJO REFERENCE??????!!!!!!!!!!11!1!1!1!1!1!1! JOJO IS THE BEST FUCKING ANIME JOSUKE IS SO BADASSSSS ORAORAORAORAORALORAORAORAORAORAORAORAORAORAORAORAORAORAORAORA MUDAMUDAMUDAMUDAMUDAMUDAMUDAMUDAMUDAMUDAMUDAMUDAMUDAMUDAMUDAMUDAMUDAMUDAMUDAMUDAMUDAMUDAMUDAMUDAMUDAMUDAMUDAMUDA WRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY Yo Angelo!Yo Angelo! Yo Angelo!Yo Angelo! Yo Angelo Yo Angelo! Yo Angelo Yo Angelo! Yo Angelo!Yo Angelo!Yo Angelo! Yo Angelo!Yo Angelo!Yo Angelo! Yo Angelo!Yo Angelo! Yo Angelo!Yo Angelo! Yo Angelo! Yo Angelo! Yo Angelo! Yo Angelo! Yo Angelo! Yo Angelo! Yo Angelo! Yo Angelo! Yo Angelo! Yo Angelo!Yo Angelo! Yo Angelo! Yo Angelo! Yo Angelo! Yo Angelo! Yo Angelo!Yo Angelo!Yo Angelo! Yo Angelo! Oh you’re approaching me, But it was me, Dio

>>2015 lmao based

>>575
That bottle looks like windshield wiper fluid.

>>575
25 pounds of sugar will run you around $25. Yeast and yeast accessories are also fairly cheap. Water is cheap. Storage can get a bit pricey depending on what you go for, but a 5 gallon water jug only costs around $10, and has the added bonus of already including the water.

Champagne yeast has the highest alcohol percentage but doesn't taste fantastic at 20%. Thus, 25 pounds of sugar will yield what, 5 pounds of ethanol? That is about 0.759 gallons of pure ethanol for an input cost of about $30 per batch plus around $20 in a single supply cost.

And of course, this isn't factoring in distillation which I don't think is entirely necessary as long as you can boil it on a stove top to get rid of the methanol. In reality I don't think you need that as long as you add some sugar or flavoring after, and that way you end up with some nice 15-20% beer or wine flavored however you want for pretty cheap. Somewhere under 5 gallons of it.

The only problem is the time investment. You'd have to have 2 containers, one to drink from and store your shit and one to ferment the next batch, but overall it is cheaper just to make.

>>575
>Weed is cheaper than alcohol per hour high at retail prices
It really is. It sucks that I can't smoke due to the kind of work I do having frequent drug tests, otherwise I'd drop alcohol altogether outside of homebrew and rare social occurrences. If I'm stupid like pot I get a hangover, but that's usually caused by eating too much salty food.

>but what if I brewed my own alcohol?
You could. I've brewed a few times. It's not that cheap unless you brew in bathtub-sized batches or larger. The main thing is you can control the taste and alcohol content after you make the mandatory 2-7 novice shitty batches.

>Does anime really work as escapism? I just end up being unable to pay attention.
Yeah, but nah. It helps many unwind because of the comfy aspects, but it can only do so much, and you have to be in the right mood. I like manga and light novels since I can read a series, stop paying attention to it for six months or a year, and come back to quite an array of new chapters usually (or the occasional disappointment of finding out the series was dropped).

>How do y'all prefer to get away from indifference, and at what price?
I have nothing to do that right now (by choice, not by budget/other factors). I used to vaporize THC concentrates, but you can't pass drug tests that way, and I watched it ruin a lot of (mainly normalfags') lives. I like weed, but I also know I'm the sort who can't just smoke it on the weekends since I get upset/angry very easily and venting (IRL) would just make my situation worse. I've been venting a lot on imageboards lately, but I dislike doing that because it makes anons uncomfy.

>>575 i just wank off to some questionable porn, play bunch of games, and not sleep so half the time my brain is in a zombie like state so i won't have to think too much

If you shove enough yeast up your ass, you can forcibly inflict yourself with auto brewery syndrome and then you can get as drunk as you want just by eating sugar. With this method, I assure you there is no cheaper alternative to being fucked up. It's treatable if you want to get rid of it later, too!

>>922 >What books have you been reading lately Mythology of Greeks and Romans by Zygmunt Kubiak and The Birth of Tragedy by Friedrich Nietzsche

How to Win Friends and Influence people. Fantastic read.

Thisby Thestoop and the Black Mountain. It's a young adult book but I don't even care. It's so good. It's outrageously comfy and I've gotten totally pulled into the world.

>>922 I just finished rereading The Hobbit and man is that book comfy. Perfect for reading in bed late at night with a cup of tea next to me.

No Longer Human, Osamu Dazai https://archive.org/details/in.ernet.dli.2015.148752

>>1628 Lost Wisdom by Burzum is easy to learn but maybe Black Metal isn't your thing

>>1628 >what are some good sad songs to learn on guitar The Cranberries - Zombie Slash - Gotten Pearl Jam - Better Man

>>1948 The White Stripes - Jolene

Green Bird: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pxh3mvkokfw Exile Vilify: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LLSkIwdjHCk

>>1628 The more personal stuff from Pat the Bunny like Never coming home https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kGFFC7Kn5l4 Or some AJJ stuff https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FruBx8C-pkc This one is really short but I like it: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p0bRmpYqvmY

>>1937 I like this, very wholesome. And thanks for sharing your drawing Anon. Do you draw often?

>>1937 Cute! Thanks for sharing OP, manual art has a certainw je ne se quoi that digital can't replicate. I admire your optimism, it's something quite rare to see, you're a lucky man. Hope you have a good Xmas, OP. >>1938 How does the Secret Santa work? Sounds quite strange to just exchange gifts with some stranger over the internet.

>>1937 Happy winter solstice to You *their

If nothing else, I'm at least grateful there's the potential for my life to change for the better. Happy holidays, anon.

>>1937 it's actually just a cute drawing my friend made I'll let them know you like it anon >>1952 aww thank you everyone needs happyness anon >>1973 happy holidays back too you >>1938 it's always nice to make someone feel special because it makes you feel good too >>1963 same back to you

happy december, fellas. last leg of the journey, cant falter now. just three weeks to chrstmas, have you set up your decorations?

>>1900 I keep thinking I should do that, but then I'm busy all day and the fam is tired at night.

>>1900 Yup, me and my flatmates have put some colored lights, a christmas tree with some decoration on it. It's one of these moments that make appreciate being with this guys. I have the chance to have flatmates who care about our common house life.

this season's been a real drag so far but christmas still lifts my spirits since i remember all the good times i had when i was younger

>>1067 >Do you look forward to, or have anything planned for this year end? No

>>38 Really enjoying the radio keep up the good work buddy !

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=USpUI98mWQE https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=awZa5M_jukA&t https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rXOueFYViKA Dropping these two here: Klaus Schulze's discography is a really good pick for latestation in my opinion, it's really relaxing, and even if it's cliché to say that, it makes you travel. It's really efficient for studying too.

MF Doom - Yellow Dock https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jkWiLHVY6jk

I'm should be working on my finals right now instead of procrastinating like I am now. I guess some music can help. It's pretty comfy, what I have heard so far.

>>1920 Not gonna lie, I have the same problem as you. I always tell myself today I'll work, but I don't. One day I want to be the working/enough type of guy, but I have a lot of work to do on myself before that happens. I wish you the best in your final exams, hope you manage to work on them and pass your exams :)

Yeah, that happens sometimes.

We were down for a bit. Sorry about that.

>>1912 it's all good, just wanted to make sure i wasnt just having a bad connection.