You are lucky. I'm visiting family rn and there's barely any rain around here. I love when rain hits the window while I'm working.
>than "dead inside and numb"
It's alright. I can understand you feeling that way. Not sure if we should make a vent post here, but if you want to complain about something here at least I wouldn't mind. Either way, it's fine to feel bad. It might not work for everyone, but I at least try to push my frustrations into something productive and what's important to me. It took me a while to be able to do it though. Either way I hope everything is fine and sending you good feelings to help with you feeling down.