Holy fucks, what has this thread become ? We should give OP some genuine advice that'll help them in the future.
OP, there's thousands of people out there and you will meet other boys that could end up to be better boyfriends than your ex.
If i can give you one piece of advice tho, do not idolize someone your really interested in, you can very easily get disappointing, and try to start to control your feelings before being in a relationship with that person.
I hope you get better and have better relations