it's a room i visit every so often. there are portals inviting me to different universes. different lives. different realities. sometimes i'll be walking down the street and i'll have silent conversations with myself. every so often, i'll catch myself talking. i'll do hand and face gestures to nobody in particular.

sometimes, i don't need to close my eyes. i've been asked why i stare into space a lot, and why i'm quiet. truth is, i'm watching multiple movies in my head. sometimes, i'll be listening to music and imagine a music video with me as the singer. i'll be reading a book and find myself losing track of where i was because i was daydreaming about being a teacher.

multiple crushes play multiple parts in my multiple universes. like two parallel lines that never meet. sometimes, i'll build an entire scenario from scratch and get so invested in it i feel drained the entire day. sometimes, i'll read or hear or see something that starts the worldbuilding process.

i don't know if this is a blessing or a curse. i've been doing this my whole life. i've had this my whole life. daydreams so vivid they take me away from reality.